Everything in life has a cost – and inaction is the most expensive one of them all. You know how consulting is a bunch of ebbs and flows? Well, I’m back in an “ebb”. Things are somewhat slowing down and both leaders on my team are mostly away this week. It seems as though I’m brimming with inspiration, but the lack of action and the pace is sort of mellowing out my vibe. There are so many things I want to do – like getting a part time job and start my own business and go to a conference and set up a womens’ network and go on solo trips – all at the same time. And while these are fun dreams to have, I’ve almost lost faith in myself that I’ll actually follow through. On the flipside, I have been applying to a number of jobs and opportunities (some not completed) yet none of them have been getting back to me so I guess that’s somewhat discouraging too. But I need to figure out who I am/what I do beyond work. And how to organize everything that I want to do and am currently in the hopes of doing.
Because from the outside, it looks like I have a ton going on, and that I have aspirations, but until any of them come to a close, it’s hard for me to say that I’m truly invested. But I just really want to work for myself and have it be money making..I want to call the shots and be financially free. I want to be busy as heck! And travel across the world and meet new people and experience new opportunities. I also want to experience new things in general. So many things to do, and I can’t let a minute discouragement stop me from reaching the stars. As I sit here, in my own focus room in the office feeling unfulfilled and craving a new start, a new experience and something to use my flow on, I realize I cannot afford inaction. Now is not the time. Now is the time to hustle, put in all those applications and get that bread. I will have a secondary and tertiary income by July 2024. I will have found something that fuels me outside work by April 15th 2024. And above all, I will have cut off inaction as a vocab in my dictionary.
This past weekend was also beautiful – it was a long weekend, and I spent the majority of it catching up with friends I hadn’t seen in a while. I also spent a ton of money (which I have yet to calculate), but I recognize my need to be outside my comfort zone yet again (ASAP!).