Hi fam,
Yesterday was a vibe. I spent time with people I haven’t in so long, and it’s funny, I realized I’ve been saying no to such cool experiences forever. It’s only now that I come to actually realize it. Also an update, my new project starts next week, and currently she’s on the bench again. Today I just didn’t feel like myself. Like I was on the go or doing the things that energize me and get me in the flow. Today I was focusing on the time too much, feeling like every second was passing so insanely slow and feeling like I wasn’t growing as much as I could’ve. I found myself looking around me, at other people, not wanting what I have. Or at least not being aware of what I have.
What I’ve been doing a lot is asking myself “So what?”. It’s been helping a ton with my tendency to care about what other people think or how they perceive me. I find myself going for things more without being as conscious. As for fixing my thoughts about not doing enough, or not much, or not feeling fulfilled, I think I need to come up with 3 things I want to accomplish this day. Or I need to leverage this time in a more productive way, do things I wouldn’t originally get to do because of limited time.
I did listen to a jay shetty podcast episode with james corden, and he said a number of insightful things actually:
- Ask yourself “is this of your concern?”
- Know when to let it be/let it go. Think of whatever you’re holding on to like a balloon – if you continue to hold on, you never make space for anything new or even better that might come in your way.
- Keep yourself grounded – he continued to tell himself, despite all the applause, he was just a man. Everyone was told to clap. He had to continue to be him
- Being okay amidst uncertainty – just tell yourself, “we don’t know yet”, and that is totally fine. It is okay not to know. That’s not your job. Your job in this moment is to focus on what you can control and chase your curiosity.
- Defining your own success – this one is a big one, at least for me.
